cuna.cuni

pelakon

2012-01-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

anda, perempuan2 yang pandai berlakon
anda, lelaki, pelakon
anda pun, yang seksi, pelakon
anda pun yang pakai tudung, pelakon,
anda yang kaya, pelakon
anda yang miskin, pelakon.
anda yang pendiam, pelakon,
anda, yang banyak mulut, pelakon.
dan yang lain lain, pelakon juga
anda semua pelakon.

aku juga, pelakon.

kita semua pelakon. di dunia yang penuh dengan orang suka meminta-minta.

go figure

2012-01-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

it's a funny feeling you get when you know somebody is observing you, every single thing you're doing, and tries to figure out your character and personalities from all your doings. when they start recognizing and listing down the not-ordinary-stuff you do, they are beginning to succeed figuring out.

why?

because they're trying to understand girls.
really? this is me memandai2.

because girls are complex, and complicated.
undeniably, yes. i'm sorry but we all are.

at the same time, i'm flattered.

p/s: this is so random

made a mess

2012-01-02T01:09:00.001+08:00

p/s: that's my finger's work on my phone. teruk but sincere. ecey

just another one

2011-12-29T20:33:00.002+08:00

I thank God for bringing you to me

terima kasih, dia.

2011-12-29T19:02:00.001+08:00

terima kasih sebab sedarkan I.

I said. "you don't understand"

I said "I'm talking to the wrong person"

what's the point of talking to somebody if you only want to hear responses and advice that you want to hear?

Sampai bila nak hidup dalam angan-angan?

Bila nak belajar terima kenyataan?

Syukur, aku dah sedar perkara yang patut aku sedar lama dulu.

I feel somehow relieved.

sebenarnya, memang you tak faham, sebab that's the beauty of men and women; WE ATTRACT EACH
OTHER EVEN THOUGH WE OPPOSE EACH OTHER.

but you were right.

and my bad. I ACTUALLY TALKED TO THE RIGHT PERSON.

terima kasih, you.

you

2011-12-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

thanks to you, the particular ones who are willing to listen and understand.
i don't need you to believe, because to believe is a big thing. trust. one hard thing to earn.

the rest, i don't care.
it's my life. if it is fucked up, it's still my life, not yours.

i love you all

hu hu hu llo

2011-11-29T19:20:00.002+08:00

hai. apa khabar? whoa, lama sangat tak update. kenapa tiba tiba post ni? entah.
so what did i miss?

hmm let's see.

selamat hari raya aidilfitri
selamat hari raya aidil adha
salam maal hijrah.

sebenarnya, tengok dekat blog sendiri ni, makes me realize that i was so hangat2 tahi ayam. kata nak menjahit la, baking lah, nak rajin update la. at last, i only succeeded to become LAZY. eloknya perangai.

sekarang, dah tak nak janji apa2, let's just coast along, tengoklah apa jadi.

by the way, i missed you, dear cunahusna.blogspot :)

::cuna::

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2011-08-01T13:57:00.001+08:00

SALAM RAMADHAN. SELAMAT BERPUASA. SELAMAT BERIBADAH. BYE.

(pesen malas nak tulis)

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2011-08-01T13:56:00.002+08:00

SALAM RAMADHAN. SELAMAT BERPUASA. SELAMAT BERIBADAH. BYE.

(pesen malas nak tulis)

hope.

2011-06-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

sebenarnya dalam hidup ni jangan nak mengada ngada nak give up lah. surrender lah. there's nothing more you can do lah. it's the end lah. semua tu bullshit selagi kita hidup.
dalam hidup ni jangan sesekali berhenti berdoa, dan jangan berhenti berharap, walaupun orang lain dah kata akan sia sia saja harap lebih2 benda yang mustahil. hey, tak pernah dengar phrase takde apa yang mustahil ke??
semuanya ada hikmah, good things come.

aku cakap betul, jangan sesekali give up on siapa2 pun. anything is possible, again.
tak kisahla apa orang lain nak cakap, abaikan. okay?

never give up hope:)

dah tu, jangan lupa bersyukur tau. Alhamdulillah

see u.
::cuna::

cubaan pertama. bleghh

2011-06-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

ini first two i made since cuti started. tak pandai sangat bleghh.

okkay. ini ialah satu t shirt yang i think i will never wear. daripada tak pakai langsung, kesian dekat baju ni.. i modified it....

....into a cardigan yang for sure i will wear anytime!

and this one below is a plain t shirt yang ada stain kat bawah dia.

snip snip, sew sew, it turned from just a boring t shirt.....

.....into a dress! i combined it with a cotton fabric and it looks like im wearing a skirt

but actually it's a dress :))

dan semestinya i need more practice. im not really satisfied but okay la i think im not that bad. im gonna try again next time!

thanks for checking out!

::cuna::

seru

2011-06-12T13:06:00.001+08:00

ok dah lama gegils tak update blog teruk ni.
sebab malas nak writing.
okayyyy.
dah sampai masa buat blog ni jadi satu blog yang berguna.
straight to the point. tolong doakan saya supaya rajin2 selalu untuk menjahit sebab seru nak menjahit dah datang kembali dan saya sangatlah berharap saya tidak hangat hangat tahi ayam. please.
nanti bila saya dah menjahit saya akan post pictures of my creations kat sini and i really need your comments untuk improve and i need your support. i really hope that my hobby for sewing ni will bring me forward to great future, like starting my own business. cita cita kena tinggi. keh keh. ok berangan. takpe tak salah kan. i really wanna try. cuti yang sangat lama ni memang patut saya guna dengan sebaiknya.
please pray for me.

im gonna start with very simple ones first and please bagi feedbacks:)
wait for them!!

amin...
:cuna:

ya, memang sedang cuti

2011-05-15T22:26:00.004+08:00

sebenarnya, I don't even know what I want.
I have this one precious thing, but it is getting old and it doesn't make me feel on cloud nine anymore.
I don't jump around anymore for it. The spark is gone. There are lines appearing to obstruct.
I THINK I want something new. It's just a thought
But it's lucky enough that I don't get bored easily with great things.

apa, kau ingat apa hah????
aku cakap pasal phone aku lah.

get things straight people. think simply. jangan duk suka sangat benda2 complicated.

:cuna:

i know i know i'm selekeh

2011-05-05T16:04:00.001+08:00

ni lah tiimelapse tu. cool kann. feeling feeling JalanJalan Cari Makan. huahuahua
Nasi Alam Yemon Pak Li. Yesterday. Credits to Mr. Z

::cuna::

a k u

2011-05-05T12:32:00.004+08:00

Adakah satu masalah menjadi seorang yang tak joyah dan lebih suka menyimpan rahsia? ooh pedas pedas.
Tak kisah lah rahsia diri sendiri, ataupun rahsia orang lain.
Aku ni, suka suka hati je bila rasa nak bagitahu orang ke tak about certain matters esp secrets/ problems. Kalau aku nak bagitahu, aku cakap. Kalau aku taknak, tak payah sibuk lebih nak mintak pelempang. Tanya sekali cukup. Sebab kalau aku nak bagitahu, tak payah tanya banyak2 kali, in fact it's possible I will just tell without being asked. Kalau pasal masalah, if I don't tell anyone, it means I believe that I can handle it myself, ya.

Kalau rahsia orang pulak, kalau tuan punya rahsia tu #likeseriously memang mintak the matter to be kept, aku akan cuba sedaya upaya jadi amanah. Susah, ya, memang susah. Kalau rahsia aku, aku bagitahu sorang dua je lah yang aku betul2 percaya. PERCAYA. A really big word that is very hard to earn these days.

Lagi satu, orang pulak. Orang. Ya, sebenarnya I choose who I want to please. Selfish much? I know. But I learn this from someone. Sebenarnya bagus memilih ni. So, in this particular context, I choose who I want to talk to. Kau jangan ingat aku main petik je sape2 aku nak cakap. Ada criterias okay? Kiranya memang the chosen ones la yang mereka2 ni. Ya, aku tahu memang macam bajet gila aku ni kan. Tapi biarla. Aku nak hidup berprinsip. Aku ada baca dari blog somebody, I think it was Separa Normal. "'Hidup ni kena ada prinsip, dah ada prinsip baru ada jiwa,"(Separa Normal, 2011). Hidup kena ada prinsip. And kena berpegang pada prinsip tu. Macam berpegang pada agama. Aku setuju sangat.

Bagi aku, biarlah seselfish mana prinsip tu, aku percaya padanya. Aku rasa ada baiknya. One of the reasons is sebab kita hidup bukan sorang sorang dalam dunia ni. Lain orang, lain ragam. Ada orang ni perangai annoying gila untuk aku, tapi tak annoying untuk kau. Ada orang tu kau suka perangai dia tapi aku tak. Pulak tu, we now live in a world where everyone wants everyone to please him/her. Tapi kita sendiri tahu yang kita tak mampu nak please every single person, apatah lagi nak memuaskan hati masing masing yang EGO nya tak tahu nak describe macam mana. Aku cuba, walaupun aku pilih aku nak please siapa. Orang yang aku rasa worth to please, I will please him/her. Aku mungkin bukan orang yang penting dalam hidup kau. So kau tak payah nak sentap nak marah nak bebel lebih mengumpat cakap belakang kalau aku tak please kau sebab we all know that IT IS HARD TO PLEASE EVERYONE.

Yang penting, aku tahu bila bila saja tak kisahla susah ke senang, aku tahu Allah sentiasa ada.

by the way, lari topik terus ni, aku suka app TimeLapse iPhone. coolness. Tapi malangnya bukan iPhone aku. At least benda ni buat aku happy.:)
Nanti aku post. Nak kena mintak dari tuan phone tu dulu, Mr.Z. or boleh checkout terus kat video dalam blog dia.

selamatlah semua.
::cuna::

the b o r i n g cuna

2011-05-01T16:32:00.002+08:00

I think I've changed. I used to love to do fun crazy things.

I feel that I've changed to a boring person.

I feel bored with myself. I don't have stories to tell people. I only tell stories about other people. see how boring my blog is? huahua

YES. I wanna be that girl back, while I think I can.

peaceeeeeeeee

::cuna::

untuk mu.

2011-05-01T14:02:00.002+08:00

i sent a text message. last night.

as usual, no reply.

i'm a loser, yes, but what the heck, i don't mind being a loser.

untuk dia.

::cuna::

:

2011-04-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

how lonely can you feel when you have all the people around.

arh tak jadi nak sambung.
fuck this entry.

randumm

2011-04-25T14:17:00.006+08:00

betul tak kalau orang tu kata dia benci seseorang, dia mesti selalu sebut or cakap pasal orang yg dia kata dia benci tu. kutuk maki bukan main.

Tanpa disedari dia telah memberi perhatian yang amat lebih terhadap orang yg dibencinya itu berbanding orang2 lain. Tak silap aku, benda yang orang panggil sebagai attention ni orang suka kan?

oh, sebab tu la ada phrase orang cakap "haters make me famous", wow, sebenarnya kena berterima kasih dekat haters yang ada di sekeliling. :) Hahaha aku ingatkan haters ni memang teringin sangat nak tengok orang yang dibenci jatuh tersungkur. Tapi ada lagi satu phrase ni "haters make me feel motivated"
ha, benci dan kutukla lagi orang tu orang ni. #nampaksangat sebenarnya 'suka' dekat orang yang "katanya" dibenci tu.

kalau tanya aku, aku cakap, kalau benci orang tu buat taktau sudah. takpayah kutuk maki lebih2. bersederhana kan lebih baik

saja je, terpikir pasal ni.kihkih
takpayah setuju. i dont even care :)

::cuna::

.

2011-04-24T19:18:00.004+08:00

almost 12 hours dah aku tinggal rumah. almost 12 hours baru.
sampai pukul 9 something. naik bus pegi kl sentral. tunggu si budak2 (Zarif, Aiman, Hanis) datang amik sebab ada surprise party kat klcc. Happy Birthday Kd, thanks Iza :)

alang2 kat sana, ramai2 pegi tengok movie. it was fun. compared to going back to Shah Alam.
ya. aku sangat homesick. kenapa? sebab kena balik shah alam freaking awal sebab assignment Test Construction yg sangat ^&*()#$ tu tak siap lagi. it's a group work. kalau takde assignment tu, aku boleh duduk rumah sampai 2 hb May sebab first paper 3rd May. tu lah sebab aku rasa sangat tak ikhlas balik shah alam ni. tapi nak buat macammana. terpaksa. kalau ikutkan, pungpang pung pang dah aku mencarut ni. tapi baik tak payah, mencarut pun dapat dosa je.

biar ar, aku memang suka duduk rumah. heaven:)

redha je la. demi belajar. pointer sem ni honestly aku tak nampak macam nak naik, macam nak turun ada la. takut. tapi kena teruskan mencuba. untuk parents.

redha je la.
cewah, padahal post before bukan main lagi pasal positive thinking. ass.

dan sekarang aku nak mandi.

the beauty of positivethinking

2011-04-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel UGLY. Honestly, I do sometimes feel jealous of gorgeous, pretty beautiful people with awesome outfits.
But then i think again, that is just MY opinion and views towards the word beautiful and ugly? Actually, who am I to be sure of what beautiful and ugly mean, who are beautiful and who are not.

The thing is, everybody is BEAUTIFUL. BEAUTIFUL IS SUBJECTIVE. keep that in mind.

What's the point of lookin smokin hot but yet the heart is stale and dark, right?

The mind, thoughts, heart, personality show how beautiful you are. Anyone can look beautiful. And I can't even explain how it's indicated, precisely. It'll go back to the fact; different people, different views. It becomes harder when people only judge based on the physical and stereotype. manusia ni sangat rumit, kan? macam ni lah jadi bila semua terlampau pandai, jadi terlampau judgmental.

senang2, just focus on yourself. bring out the best personality and rock it. Semua orang ada taste masing2, give the best, be yourself, FLAUNT WHAT YOU HAVE. BE PROUD OF YOURSELF. this goes to me too.

all the best!
::cuna::

satu

2011-04-20T14:07:00.000+08:00

lama gila tak update. YES. I STOPPED. WELL, IT'S MORE TO A LOOONG PAUSE.

I paused because sort of merajuk dengan Blogspot. boleh tak? but that i never stopped reading blogs. certain ones.

I thought of making a new one? but then to me orang yang create a new one ni diorang tak suka posts diorang yang dulu. well i suka, even though LAMEnya ya ampun. well, sekarang pun still lame.

So, bear it. I mean, EMBRACE it.

We can't stop people from judging. Kalau nak tahu apa yang betul2, ask me personally. Mana tahu bernasib baik dapat tahu perkara betul2. I prefer to let people think what they want since it's their mind, but only certain people know the real thing. It's the magic of 'asking'

wtf am i blathering about?

cenggini, i wanted to create a new blog, but i figured that why not just continue with this old one.

i'm resetting, but i'm not deleting the history.

::cuna::

hari ni saya belajar

2011-03-05T00:23:00.005+08:00

selain dari belajar yang wajib dalam course sebagai seorang TESL student,
saya ada belajar some other things jugak. saya? buek.

pertama; aku belajar yang men won't feel satisfied with just one. they want variety. perhaps not all men. but that's sorta a stereotyping statement jugak kan. so i don't know how far this statement is true. cewah.
p/s; jangan amik Barney Stinson as a good example for this point.hihihi even though he is the awesome-st.

kedua; aku belajar yang aku pun patut ignore je kalau effort tu tak mendatangkan hasil. penat2 aku memalukan diri dan membazir tenaga dan kata2, kalau the person is just not worth the effort, then just stop. BUT, if it's worth the effort, don't give up. either way, fikirlah untuk kebaikan. apa aku merepek ni

ketiga; aku belajar pasal rebound love. haha ni yang paling kurang asam. apa benda rebound love ni? aku pun taktau whether it is love or it is just a feeling that you have at an ending of another relationship. but it happens bila contohnya kau break up ngan gf/bf, then kau suka kat somebody else. tu lah rebound love. aku rasa lame sebab baru tahu term ni. kakakaka. tapi kawan aku kata, rebound love ni may work, and may not work as well. perhaps it does not work because maybe it is only a short phase; rebounding. bukan rebonding ya.

keempat; aku belajar yang being in the midst of all the fun with everyone, we give attention, we help, we care, it CAN make us invisible as well. hmm bila pikir balik, ada jugak kena mengena dengan point aku yg kedua.

ini perkara2 yang aku belajar. tak tahu lah kalau sesat.
tapi aku tak mintak korang terima pun ilmu tak pasti ni.

terima kasih kerana membaca.

::cuna::

teruskanlah.

2011-03-02T12:12:00.001+08:00

im trying to move on.
one thing ive learnt, it's better that i dont know than knowing the things that will hurt.
and another thing, things that WE THINK will frustrate and sadden us, will not necessarily hurt us.

and so far, it's been fine:)

Alhamdulillah.

::cuna::

Don't be too rude, at least

2011-02-27T18:01:00.003+08:00

Why should we be proud of our negative sides. I hairan la y'alls.

Isunya sekarang:
Why should you be proud of your rudeness? Aku geramla. Should'nt we be proud of our positive sides but takdela pegi bgtau orang sana sini.
Ni dahla rude, swear sana sini lepas tu tunjuk as if you're proud of it. Dah tu bagi pulak excuse 'i am being myself, i'm not a hypocrite' come one. Kemonn .
Even worse dah tau diri sebenarnya tak macam tu, tapi memang sengaja nak mencarut memaki dalam internet. Sebab seronok eh? Wtf <-- ini contoh i filter bila i swear.

Kalau ya pun, janganla melampaulampau sangat sampai orang yg takde kena mengena pun rasa annoyed. Ni hari hari ada je maki, mencarut. Excessively pulak tu. Kemonn.

Be in control.

Word of the day: kemonn

::cuna::

Now and always

2011-02-23T12:39:00.002+08:00

Okay. Semalam sangat terrible. Perhaps sebab terlampau penat.

But Alhamdulillah last night ended well, i got Zarif to give me some motivational words and i even texted with my parents and almost everyone. *texting with parents is actually fun.

And the night ended with me chatting with my friend who's studying in Russia. And we talked about stuffs that were very diverting from all the hecticness and tension, and made me happy. :D

Thank you.

And now, i know it's time for me, for US, to think positively and be strong to go through everything. Allah is always with us. :)

::cuna::

tibatiba

2011-02-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

tibatiba rasa tak sedap hati. dan fragile.
I miss everyone I love. so much.

dan.. I couldn't write more.

dah lama

2011-02-20T00:22:00.001+08:00

dah lama tak makan mcD. like seriously. percayalah
dah lama tak shopping. likeseriously. tolongla percaya.
dah lama tak bergayut cakap phone.
dah lama tak texting beribu dgn somebody.
dah lama tak pegi KL.
dah lama tak balik rumah. *walaupun cuti CNY baru2 lagi. still rasa lama
dah lama tak rasa masakan ibu.
dah lama tak jumpa hometown friends yang sgt awesome.
dah lama tak tengok cerita Nacho Libre. nachoooooo!
dah lama tak menjahit.*padahal saya cuma menjahit masa cuti
dah lama gila tak pegi jumpa dentist.
dah lama tak tengok astro.
dah lama tak tengok Annoying Orange. *sebab malas nak tunggu loading internet sini slow.
dah lama tak mandi laut.
dah lama tak swimming.
dah lama tak pergi party.
dah lama tak jumpa.jumpa siapa pulak aku merepek.

ok dah la tu. sebelum aku start merepek, aku stop.

so. ada siapa2 nak tolong accomplish mana2 satu kat atas ni yg dah lama saya tak buat? *sedih kalau takde.

terima kasih sebab baca:)

::cuna::

sygttpsyg

2011-02-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

dia punya baran, ego, dan degil sangatlah comel dan handsome.

tapi saya takut dengan dia. saya sangat respect dia. tapi saya berani buat dia sakit hati dengan saya.

berapa banyak kali dah pulak tu.

actually, dekat parents pun saya macam tu. sangatsayang, takut, sangatrespect, tapi nak buat macammana, perangai anak macam ni lah.selalu buat salah.

sayang tetap sayang.

::cuna::

kan dah cakap

2011-02-16T00:53:00.002+08:00

see, kan keluar news tadi. tak kena tangkap kat hotel, kena tangkap dalam kereta tengahtengah gelap malam. Astaghfirullah. sangat tak respect hari yang sangat mulia.hadoi
aku geram betul la dengan kestupidan mereka. aku ni pun bukan baik mana. tapi they should've seen it coming sebab kita sendiri pun boleh expect this news akan ada. tapi tulah, bila nafsu dan syaiton menguasai, manusia hilang rationality. iman pulak tak kuat. ~~agak~~ padan muka la kena tangkap.

susah nak jadi kuat ni.

eeih tadi aku practice main lagu grenade macam nak gila tapi tak fasih2.
taknak baca bukuuuuuu *sebab ada test , nak practice. hihihi

::cuna::

sikat

2011-02-14T22:30:00.004+08:00

sikat rambut di depan mata. jadi tajuk this post. sangat random. takpe.

i can see today some people were very happy, contented. but there were also those who were not so much in their best condition. be strong. all i can say is, there;s always hikmah for everything. and hikmah is always and always a good thing. be optimistic. everything's gonna be alright. InsyAllah.

macam saya sendiri. pinggang ni sakit sangat. dah berapa hari dah. diri/jalan lima minit je terus sakit. any ideas of treatment for this? it's bad when you are experiencing old people's ailments at a very young age. eh, young ke?? nak 21 dah weyy. tapi still muda la.

hmm, it's Maulidur Rasul night. Salam Maulidur Rasul to all my Muslim brothers and sisters. banyakkan selawat dan salam

tapi yang sedihnya, dalam news tadi sampai berpuluh puluh pasangan kena tangkap khalwat. esok pulak berapa ribu pasangan kena. Ya Allah. whats happening to the world. apa de dah jadi ignorant sangat ni?
memang truthfully i actually agree on the statement made that ramai anak luar nikah dilahirkan pada bulan november tu because of valentine's. it may sound ridiculous, but it could be the reason. tolonglah. mintak jauh la.

to make a big noticeable change, it's ourselves that we need to change first. i'm saying this to myself too.
tapi jangan kalut, take it slow, one step at a time. InsyAllah

:cuna:

kipas

2011-02-13T23:35:00.001+08:00

hmm. angin dari box fan depan aku ni buat aku mengantuk. padahal baru 11.31 pm.
awal lagi.
tidur awal lah malam ni.
esok takde class. lusa cuti Maulud Nabi.Alhamdulillah.
esok valentine's. pegi mammmpp. tak celebrate.
so far, aku happy.
aku sakit pinggang. ada orang tolong urut kan best ni. kang aku pegi uptown mintak org urut kaki tu urut pinggang tak pasal2 aku make a scene kat situ nanti.nonono
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tapi aku rindu dia.sangat.
::cuna::

second update for the day

2011-02-07T21:44:00.001+08:00

yes. aku update sekali lagi.
after reading one of my mates' entry, i just remembered that i forgot something.
aku duduk meluah perasaan sedih marah kat sini , aku terlupa nak ingat yang aku ada Allah.
aku ada Allah in no matter what situation; either the worst hardship i am in or how happy i am. HE is always there. cuma kita hamba yang lupa.

aku belajar, kalau nak hilangkan rasa marah or segala yang negatif, ambik wudhu. as simple as that je. cool kan?? apatah lagi kalau solat dan baca Quran. lagi cool kan?

sekali lagi, mintak maaf sebab terluah perasaan in the previous entry. aku belajar, jangan simpan dalam hati. bernanah hati tu nanti. meletup habis baru tau. eeih geli lah.

okay tu je.

::cuna::

it's one hell of a hot day.

2011-02-07T18:12:00.001+08:00

aku update sambil makan streusel coffee cake ibu buat. over tak? huahua.

okay. hari ni panas gila. the weather i mean. kena bangun awal sebab nak anta assignment syahreena before 9am. aku dahla tak print lagi kerja. kena bangun awal.

aku set alarm before 8. tapi 8 baru bangun. susah sangat nak bangun. tapi aku dapat wake up call yg bukanlah phone call yg betul2 buat aku terbangun. aku kena marah. fullstop.

aku bangun mandi sikit sikit then pegi library nak print, library tak bukak aircond. panas!! dahla baru lepas kena marah. tensi tensi. tapi aku buat muka chill je lah sebab bukan apa sangat pun halnya.

kenapa kena marah? mestila biasanya sebab aku buat salah, kan?
siapa marah aku? ah tak payah ngadengade nak tahu.
tapi apa yang aku belajar from kena marah ni is that some people just dont want to be involved in your life's going-ons. some people tak suka bila orang mention dia, even untuk tujuan bergurau dan untuk suka suka.
or perhaps some people are embarrased of me, that dia tak nak orang tau my existence. anything is a maybe.
aku mengaku, aku amik lesson dari silap ni. aku lupa untuk tidak meng-expect things to be as we want them to turn out. aku terlupa nak expect the unexpected jugak. aku terlupa yang tak semua benda kita suka orang lain suka. dan aku regret.

cuma, aku berkecil hati sebab aku kena marah dengan kata kata yang sangat mengguris hati. i feel so fucking hurt. aku dah tak pakai censored words sebab aku sangat2 sedih. masih terbayangbayang ayatayat amarah itu. betul ke the word is amarah for anger? takpelah. bukan apa, bila kita tak pernah berkasar langsung dengan orang tu, tapi tiba tiba dia marah dengan sangat rude apa korang akan rasa? bengangla kan. mana taknya, we want to be treated the same way as we treat other people. macam tu lah aku rasa.
kalau nak marah pun, please la choose the right words. i hate rudeness. even aku boleh kira berapa kali lah sangat aku mencarut. bila aku mencarut straightforward tu memang betul2 marah la tu. bukan nak kata aku baik, but janganla kasar sangat kalau ya pun nak marah.

budaya sindir menyindir prof sentap pun boleh jugak!!

seriously i am taking a big risk in posting this entry. nanti kena tibai lagi if ada orang berkenaan terasa. but i have the freedom to express since this is my effing blog. and i didnt mention any names kan. sangat general but specific at the same time.

still, aku mintak maaf sebab terlupa nak fikir that again, people may not like what i like.

so, hari ni takde class, ada mock meeting however, sangat lega dah habis. lepas tu borak borak gelak gelak ngan kawan kawan pasal budak budak perempuan sekolah merepek cara pakai tudung and baju sekolah. wow. seronok la gelak.
oh ya, hari ini sangat melekit sebab panas.

seriously, it's one hell of a hot day.

ampunkan daku.
::cuna::

oih naik lagi satu stage.

2011-02-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

hari ni one oh my best friends got engaged. she looked stunning!
congratulations my dear Syazwa!

semua berjalan macam biasa macam majlismajlis pertunangan lain.
dia punya fiancee anak cikgu yang jadi owner tempat kami kami pergi tuition masa skola dulu. what a small world..ngeh ngeh,

cumaa..

masa lepas dia dah bertunang tadi, dia datang kat aku cakap, "yen(yen tu aku la), yen ingat dok gambo yang kita tangkap masa kat astaka tu? muka nakal nakal belaka. "

Aku pulak jadi: whoah! ingat2! senyap satu saat berfikir. aku kata, " eh, tu masa kita form 1 kan? 13 tahun. skarang? 21!!!! gosh almost ten years ago!!

aku memang rasa sangat susah nak percaya yang kami dah berkawan selama itu. and the fact that kami dah besar. and shes engaged. another step to getting married. well, dia la kawan kami yang first skali paling advanced dah bertunang. yang lain cool dulu. keh keh. padahal calon pun belum pasti ada.

aku pikir. dah besar semua. hmm. susah nak percaya.

kan dah kata, dia lawa. aku jela selekeh dan sepet tak habis habis

;;cuna;;

it's one hell of a sleepy day

2011-01-29T23:33:00.002+08:00

mengantuk. masih mengantuk. aku update ni dalam keadaan mengantuk.
siapa suruh cari pasal keluar tengah2 malam, cuna? siapa suruh??haa????
sebenarnya keluar tengah malam bukanlah a big deal untuk seorang yg muda macam kita kita ni. ayat mintak pelempang ngan mak.
tapi yang jadi seksa nak terima adalah consequences dia lepas tu. bukan generally, tapi particularly semalam.
keluar dari maghrib, sampai 3am. wth did i do??? jalanjalan laaa.
yang pastinya semalam aku tengok khurafat buat kali kedua. dan masih terjerit2 walaupun dah tengok. takpe, orang kata kalau demi nak teman orangorang yang kita suka, rela tengok berkalikali kat cinema.
tapi nak cakap pasal hal mengantuk ni. balik puchong pukul 3am. 3.30 am tido, tapi pukul 5 nak pegi airport dah flight balik k.trg pukul 7. wth???
thus, aku pun tido dan bangun pukul 4.30. mandi ala kadar sebab memang kena mandi, dah keluar satu hari buat jadi rimas dan melekit. eww
dah tu, tido sejam je, patutla mengantuk. sampai KT pukul 8am. chill ngan family kejap. pukul 9am tido pukul 1pm bangun. ingatkan dah okay. tengok tengok nak hala ke petang tu aihh ngantuk dia mai balikkkk..
magrib aku masuk bilik. nak solat magrib pukul 8. tapi 7.30 aku ingat nak lelap kejap nak bangun solat pukul 8. tettttttttttttttt haram betul terlajak tidur. sedar2 pun anak sedara aku kejut suruh makan nasik. time tu dah 9.30pm. aku bangun tak basuh muka terus makan nasik. besttt :))
lepas tu sekarang aku dah mandi, solat. tapi mengantuk masih ada. aku ada rasa cam flu. nak makan ubat selsema. wahhh, makin ngantuk la aku. apa nak jadi. muka dan perasaan rasa sangat wasted.

i just wanna say it's one hell of a damn sleepy day.

however, it's good to be home,
;;cuna;;

ok jugak kalau join sleeping contest ni. kann?

whatacoolday

2011-01-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

hari ni memang aku had fun. bukannya pergi joli sana sini.
tapi it was a simple but awesome day. yang jadi awesome nya ialah part kami(aku dan zarif) pegi barbecue anniversary my sistah!
abang ipar chef, so makanan seriously awesome!! benda yang aku makan pun aku tak tau; some sorta ribs and beef and chips and dip, potatoes and chicken ham, pastu ada chicken coated with egg and lemon juice, mushroom soup, trifle, dan cake, etc. best2. terima kasih!!even better dapat jumpa zidane and zoe sumayyah, anak2 buahku. <3 <3

zidane; suka buat muka macam ni, kakak cakap he smiles with his eyes

food;awesome

kiri, bro in law(abg zul) , baju hijau tu zarif

sumayyah

kakak

anny cake mereka; happy anniversary:)

food lagi! <3

photos, credits to zarif. thanks sebab kasi i curi :p

:::cuna::

kerepek

2011-01-17T22:32:00.003+08:00

Title macam stupid kan. Tapi tu lah benda yang pretty much describes today. Pagi aku sakit perut sampai nak merepek je rasa. see, kan rhyme dengan kerepek tu. Sampai nak pergi pusat koko nak tukar group pun tak dapat. Nasib baik ada en.zarif tolong. thanks sweetheart.

Dah tu, pergi class, dengan sakit perut tak hilang, subject pulak bapak ar seronok, BEL (sarcarsm okay). Tambah pulak cuaca kat luar mendung2. Kata classmate aku naim, muka masing2 lemau macam weather dekat luar. Dah macam kerepek lemau pun ada. okay tu aku tambah. Tapi tulah. hari ni. Perut pulak lapar masa tu. Mula la masing2 merepek dalam class. Dahla belajar pasal meetings and discussions. Hobby kami memang menokok tambah. Phrases yang serious kami jadikan sarcastic dan fun disertakan dengan gelak tawa. budakbudak, padahal dah 21 umur. Nak buat macammana, nak hilangkan bosan, kami buat discussion jadi interesting. Sampai hilang sakit perut aku. Tapi dah lama2 tu bosan balik sampai asik tengok jam je. Group yang lagi satu pulak lagila. Main Bingo siap. Gaya macam tengah meeting. Cool.
Next class pukul 4 sampai 6. Takde banyak cerita. Cuma nak cakap lecturer tu tersangat la baik sampai aku nak nangis. Aku tak tipu.

hHabis class pergi makan. Sambil makan, datang sekumpulan coursemates aku yang lain nak makan situ jugak tapi diorang duduk meja lain. Dekat meja sebelah ada lagi satu group of coursemates aku. Ada sorang budak paling annoying yang tak berentiberenti asal jumpa aku je dia nyanyi lagu yuna. Nak makan kaki agaknya budak tu.(guraugurau)

Nak jadikan cerita, sorang kawan aku yang dari meja lagi satu tu duk datang menyibuk sebab bosan agaknya duk tunggu makanan sampai. Dia datang macam budakbudak mintak sedekah dengan yang jual kismis doa tu. Aku ni pun cakapla, taknak kismis doa. Dia insist jugak nak menjual kismis minda dan doa dialah kononnya. Padahal datang nak sembang dan gosip. Lepas tu dia blah. Lepas tu dia datang lagi. Sekali lagi kami bergurau cakap taknak kismis awak. Dah tu duk sembang2 lagi tiba2 datang makcik jual kerepek. Like, seriously for real. Kami terdiam. Tergelak. Terus beli kerepek 3 rm10. Rasa guilty. Lepas ni dah tak nak bergurau pasal tu. -_________-

::cuna::

kaqlimah

2011-01-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

call me lame, lambat, or boring, apa2lah. i don't care.
YES. today i watched Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah. yes, i did! kenapa tengok cerita ni. first, saya tengok cerita melayu. cakapla saya lame ke, typical malay ke. saya tak kisah. even though saya student TESL, takkan saya tak boleh tengok cerita Melayu. tapi still pilih la nak tengok. takdela plak tengok cerita takde purpose macam Sifu Tongga. *muntah*
be wise okay.

kenapa tengok cerita kak limah ni? first, i heard positive reviews on this film. same goes to Khurafat. actually nak tengok Khurafat, tu pun sebab nak support Liyana Jasmay(seriously, tak tipu), tapi dia punya time lambat sangat. so tengok la kak limah even though macam dah terlambat untuk filem tu. one more thing, cerita ni macam sequel zombi kg pisang, and saya suka movie tu, kelakar. that's why i decided to watch kak limah.
jadi, what do i think of the movie?
hmmm, OKAY PE MOVIE TUU.:))
not THAT bad after all.
lagipun, siapa lagi nak support filem2 bagus(note the word okay, hanya yang bagus) in our film industry kalau bukan masyarakat sendiri? kata nak maju, kannn

btw, thanks for today en.zarif. well, it's been a good weekend so far. hope it stays or gets better.

Selamat Malam
love,
::cuna::

high hopes on THIS weekend

2011-01-15T02:07:00.001+08:00

oh weekend, please please please pleaseeee be nice to me. things have been really rough to me. sakit tau.
nak buat apa ye? bungee jumping?? :D

by the way, here's an awesome song awesomely performed.:)

soothing jugak suara Noh ni:)

jangan simpan

2011-01-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

random

first of all, tahniah to Ana Raffali sebab menang AJL. Tolong Ingatkan aku memang lagu favorite aku. dan Zahiril Adzim juga.:DDD

"jangan simpan"

Dua perkataan kat atas ni aku bagi dekat korang dan diri aku sendiri. Aku ada satu problem when it comes to peers. Kadangkadang i decide to just ignore with thinking why should i bother other people's problems. Sedangkan masalah sendiri pun tak sudahsudah. Tapi ni bukanla bermakna yang aku ni tak dengar masalah orang langsung. Cuma aku ada fikir, 'malaslah nak tanya, nanti dia ingat aku menyibuk pulak'. Bukan tak nak ambik tahu, tapi aku sedar yang diri aku ni pun ada problems yang tak terselesai lagi and plus, aku ni bukan la tempat untuk mintak nasihat yang terbaik. I admit it. Kalau nak mintak pendapat yang memerlukan open mind, MUNGKIN bolehla kot. Lepas tu, pasal masalah orang, kita sedar yang kita takkan dapat nak memuaskan hati everyone in our surrounding. Ada yang nak orang tanya ' you okay tak? you ada masalah? nak cerita problem dekat i? ' Truthfully, this is perhaps a bad thing, because i don't always do that, i mean i dont usually ask with the hope that diorang akan cerita diorang punya problems. BUT, i WILL ask when orang tu nampak sangat kusut, serabut, tak productive, tak progressive, menangis2, termenung yang sampai isolate diri dari orang lain. cmon la, kena la jugak concern sikit, ye dak?

Call me ignorant, tapi aku rasa makin serabut dan kesian kalau dengar orang lain pun ada masalah. Sebab i like to think that others are fine, the world is peaceful. Kalau tak nanti jadi "argh kenapa semua orang kusut ni, wathehell is happening to the world nowadays?!!" That's why i prefer orang voluntarily cerita rather than me having to ask them to tell. Macam my cousin Nany, dia ni tak payah tanya apa2, dia akan cerita everything. minah ni memang kepoh. macam tu ke eja kepoh?

Pernah ada kawan aku dia kecik hati sebab aku tak tanya dia pasal masalah dia. Aku pun mengaku aku salah sebab tak tanya. Tapi actually aku tak tanya sebab aku tak larat nak dengar when it comes to matters yang sama terjadi berulang kali. Aku dah tahu yang nanti it will be okay and sebab benda tu dah pernah terjadi and it was always serious but then it will be solved eventually. And plus, masa tu aku sendiri pun tengah serabut dengan macam2. SORRY.
Tapi, takpayah tunggu orang tanya, cerita je. tak salah sebenarnya dengar cerita kawan2.
semua ada pros and cons

Dalam class literature tadi, aku setuju dengan satu perkara yang madam cakap. Bukan yang pasal umur paling sesuai nak kawin nowadays is 27, tapi pasal apabila sedih ke ada masalah, just let go of your feelings through doing something satisfying, like cry like heavy rain, scream your lungs out sampai lega. Tapi tu my opinion la. Ada orang suka bercerita, ada orang suka pendam sampai meletup. Aku sendiri pun kadang2 suka pendam sampai meletup. Tak elok pendam2. Being straight is good actually, sebab you will get the respond rightaway. takde la tertanya2 dalam hati.

this is a good way of letting go.:))

this is just me expressing. dah baca ni jangan plak lepas ni takut2 nak cerita masalah, because i;m not mean! even tho im not THAT good in giving advice, i can be open minded. tapi taknakla yang pasal saya gay, saya tak okay sebab saya ada masalah dengan bf saya. yg tu aku mampu mendengar sahaja, dan mendoakan yang baik2.

have a good life.
::cuna::

Man U family

2011-01-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

satu family suka Manchester United, dari ibu, ayah, abang, kakak, abang ipar sampai cousins and anak2 buah.

Zidane & Zoe (nephewniece)

boleh terima?har har har
:cuna:

okay fine

2011-01-13T16:20:00.000+08:00

tak jadi nak shut down this effing blog.
kenapa? even though it's lame, sayang nak let go.
it's just that maybe i'll try to be more rajin to update.
will be updating more soon.

::cuna::

shut down

2011-01-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

im thinking of closing down this blog.

acane?ok?

finally, to the mall we headed

2011-01-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

since 31st Dec 2010, baru today pergi jalan2.
today pergi sunway. makan, chill, tengok movie, did a little shopping. and a sweet day it became.:)
thankyouthankyouthankyoufor the sweeet day:) <3 <3
pictures curik from zarif!

ini saya. check duit nak bayar for the sandals.sweeet

btw, mata tu bukak ke tutup? kalau snap guna camera kawan saya, Ji,

mesti ada tulis "did someone blink?" yang focus dekat muka saya.hahaha

makan di zanmai sushi. too bad we made wrong choices this time. tak sedappp

muka? tak sedap jugak

and tomorrow macam ada lagi je. tapi dengan orang lain pulak. rasa macam akan pergi that chocolate fair dekat midvalley. nak ikut? jom..

::cuna::

sensitive

2011-01-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

sekarang baru saya sedar bahawa saya seorang yang sensitif. bukan sensitif yang kena tegur sikit kecik hati tu. ni sensitif dengan situation where i can relate other people's experience, stories with my own experience and life.
senang cerita, i am pretty easily moved. tengok movie sedih, mulalah mata bergenang. tapi takdela over ssensitive kan sampai asal ada je cerita sedih pape je macam laptop member hilang nangis. example yang sangat random.

i will be easily moved when it comes to situations or stories involving parents, family and love. pergh tak tahan nak nangis.

but i will never be or look miserable like she does for being too sensitive.

agak2la kalau ya pun nak sensitive kan.

bytheway, perasaan hendak ke kelas masih berbelah bahagi. yang pastinya, kena pergi shopping dalam masa terdekat sebab dah gian nak shop dah ni.

::cuna:::

hello 11

2011-01-03T18:23:00.002+08:00

happy new year everyone! :D
all i can say is that 2010 was awesome and the last hours of the year was freaking awesome too. and when i say awesome, it means it really was awesome. i didnt go to the celebration, but who says we have to go the celebration to feel the fun and excitement? haaa
and for the new year, i can hope for nothing more than goodness, well being and improvements from the pasts; everyone including me.

oh by the way, i did mention that i wanna be less selekeh starting new year, and it turned out that awal2 lagi it didnt happen pun. hahaha

selamat semua,
::cuna::

are you ready??

2010-12-28T20:27:00.010+08:00

Cuti dah nak habis???!!!!!!

Besok balik kl??!!!!!!!!! Alaaaa, taknak balik shah alam.:((

urghhh.

Semester baru kena get ready nak merasa kepenatan yg bakal mendatang. Hopefully it wont be as bad as last time.

Tak puas lagi duduk rumah! Tapi, sampai bila2 pun takkan puas duduk rumah. Dah nama pun home. It's where the heart is. Tv tak puas tengok lagi! Channel2 kat astro tak abis usha semua lagi. Nanti rindu dekat Barney Stinson:(

And makan?!! Makanan di rumah la yang mesti akan paling dirindui. family?? Tak payah cerita la rindunya

dari kecil saya memang hantu tv. sebab tu belajar pandai.*irony*

Tapi, let's look at the bright side. Look the glass as half full. Nak pegi belajar. The challenge must be taken! Baru la kental. Kata nak berjaya kan. Haha. For the sake of gaining knowledge.*mukaikhlas*

And tak lupa juga, boleh la start menakalkan diri dengan mengenjoykan diri sebagai anak muda yang sihat dengan melakukan aktiviti yang menyihatkan lagi gila bersama rakan2 yang gila dan bijak.Yang negatif2 jangan. Nak lepak boleh, tapi jangan lepaklepak kosong. Sambil2 tu bukakla buku, ataupun tengok match MU main ke. Kan berfaedah:P

walaupun merasa berat hati nak balik shah alam, rasa excited dan eager tu ada. Oooh excited jugak nak balik sana rupanya. *gosokduaduatangan*

so, i am ready. ARE YOU??

:))

::cuna::

rabupulak

2010-12-26T22:10:00.004+08:00

okay. congratulations Malaysian team for winning!
3-0 tu.

tunggu rabu pulak.

::cuna::

ini malam

2010-12-26T18:25:00.004+08:00

let's wear yellow and black tonight! kena keep the spirit high!

dah tak dapat pegi b.jalil, tunjuk semangat kat rumah. haa

*kena support negara sendiri, kalau tak support, siapa nak tolong support?

::cuna::

rambut dia lawa

2010-12-26T00:57:00.003+08:00

tengok rambut noh. mizznina pulak hot.:D

lagu ni sedap jugak eh

boyfriend/girlfriend

2010-12-25T20:23:00.013+08:00

Okay. How do you guys define boy/girlfriend?

to me:

-steals heart

-serious

-commitment

-agreement; leads to the label bf/gf. (key points suda)

Senang cerita macam ni. Mula mula kawan. Lepas tu rapat. Then jumpa. Spend time a lot with each other. Lepas tu suka sama suka. Bila dah betul2 kenal, masing2 dah rasa betul2 suka and develop the feeling of love. Dengan adanya kehendak yang mutual and understanding, baru boleh declare and the labels terhasil. With that proposal and approval, baru lah diorang tu are considered as a couple. Without all that memang to me bukan a couple;tu friends, scandals or whatever it is they call these days. Kalau setakat cyber boyfriend/ girlfriend tu, mintak maaf la, tu tak dikira as a couple. Tu merepek sematamata. :) Yang zaman sekolah plak, tu lagi merepek, tu sekadar pelajaran dan pengalaman that color the life of a teenager sahaja. :D

merepek, tapi pengalaman, dan buat kita happy juga masa tu:)

Lepas tu. bila dah dinobatkan sebagai bf/gf, automatically the commitment tu ada and kena be responsible for it. Ada couple tetapkan restrictions. Restrictions ni setengah orang buat for example tak bleh keluar dengan laki/pompuan lain. But to me, restrictions tu tak payah ada. Sebab sendiri dah nak sangat couple, pandai2 la nak agak2 limitations camne. And each other tak payah nak buat queen/king control sebab tak kahwin lagi. Sendiri beringat is all i can say. But the truth is, we don't need labels in a relationship. apa lah sangat setakat declare dan panggilan bf gf tu. kan ke it's love commitment and trust that matter? hahah aku dah jiwang.

diorang ni saya minat

Bila dah suka kat someone tu, get to know that person well. Bila dah sama sama suka, discuss with each other, dah ready dengan komitmen ni? Kalau tak, tak payah. When it comes to being in a relationship, i always take it seriously. I dont get how people can be in love after a day knowing the other person and couple and gaduh then break up then couple balik and the things just keep repeating. Tu memang tak serious. Kalau macam tu perspective anda, tak payah couple, sebab it is tiring. Seriously. Baik scandal je. Seronok pe.:D

Tapi, sememangnya, kalau ada ramai bf/gf ni bagi kita experience, and kenal ramai orang, banyak ragam. But i didnt mean ramai bf/gf at the same time ye! Lain2 waktu la. Lagi banyak experience kita, lagi banyak kita belajar. Kalau macam tu, cakap awal2,'' i suka u, i nak jadi bf/gf u, tapi i cakap awal2, im not looking for anything serious''. Haaa tu baru betul. Pastu rembat la brape ramai laki/ pompuan yg korang nak. hahaha

pesanan: ingat limitations sebagai seorang manusia, Melayu dan Islam. jangan plak nanti ada plak yang ngikut cakap "saya gay saya okay". makan kaki nak?

Sesungguhnya, this is just my opinion. Korang setuju tak setuju, Cuna tak kisah.:)

and now you know:)

::cuna::

p/s. kalau nak jadi the most awesome person, belajar dengan dia. he's the most awesome:)

dia ni paling awesome

My 55 Minutes++ Survey

2010-12-25T11:28:00.009+08:00

Instruction : Once you are tagged, answer all the questions honestly. No lying or cheating.

Person who tagged : PO
Starting time : 11.32

Name : Chuna
Full name : Izyanhusna Mohd Hanifiah
Sibling(s) : 4
Eye colour : entah. macam black je.maybe dark brown i guess
Shoe size : 6
Hair : black
Height : 158cm
What are you wearing right now : pj's.heheh tak mandi lagi
Where do you live : kuala terengganu
Favourite number : 21
Favourite drink : iced lemon tea
Favourite month : september
Favourite breakfast : anything sedap

******-Have you ever-******
Broken a bone : no
Been in a police car : no

Fallen for a friend : yes:P
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : yes.merepek ni.
Swam in the ocean : yes!
Fallen asleep in school : always:D
Broken someone's heart : yes
Cried when someone died : yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : yes
Saved e-mails : yes
Been cheated on : yes

******-What-******
Your room looks like : blue and messy and cosy
What is right beside you : my bed
What is the last thing you ate : cucur!

******-Ever Had-******
Chicken pox : yes
Sore throat :mestila
Stitches : no
Broken nose : no

******-Do You-******
Believe in love at first sight : i think so
Like picnics? : yes!

******-Who-******
Who did you last yell at? : nephew. semalam kah3
Who was the last person you danced with? : cousin, nany. in her room yesterday:)
Who last made you smile? : peserta spontan astro warna.sakit perut gelak.

******-Final Questions-******
What are you listening to right now? : nothing.
What did you do today? : ate breakfast. tengok finding nemo.
Are you the oldest? : no.youngest
Indoors or outdoors? : outdoors!

******-Today did you-******
Talk to someone you like? : yes
Kiss anyone? : no
Sing? : yes
Talk to an ex? : nope
Miss someone ? : yes
Eat? :breakfast! dah cakap tadi kan.hehe

******-Last person who-******
You talked to on the phone? :zarif
Made you cry? : dia juga
Went to the movies with? : him too
You went to the mall with? : him too! eh takkk..salah lah. bleh plak lupa hari tu pegi aquaria klcc ngan family and ter-bumped into awatif, winnie and iza.:DD
Who cheered you up? : family.and tv(that includes tylerwardtv)

******-Have you-******
Been to Mexico? :no
Been to USA? :no. but want to so bad!

******-Random-******
Have a crush on someone? : yes.
What books are you reading right now? :where rainbows end. tak abis2 lagi sebab duk buat mende lain.
Best feeling in the world? : if dapat travel around the world with loved ones!
Future kids name? : oh. havent decided yet
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? : no. simpan sebab banyak sangat!
What's under your bed? : tilam:P
Favourite sport(s) : favorite sport to watch; soccer! to play too. swimming pon.:)
Favourite place : home!
Who do you really hate? : posers!
Do you have a job? : no
What time is it now? : 12.21pm

p/s : With however long it took you to complete this, post as "My _____ Minutes Survey" and tag 15 people

ni lah survey paling lama pernah jawab. sebab banyak distractions. :D

i tag: ji, naim, dya, ema, ain(zubee), ayai, nany(cousin), tirah (cousin). dah. ramai2 buat apa.

90th post

2010-12-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

What should i say what should i say.

hmmm?

A little update okay kot.

Cuti nak habis dah. Duduk rumah. Semua best. i'm a hantu tv. Makan tha bomb.

Nasib baik jugak saya kurus and tak jadi gedempol kalau makan banyak. Kalau tak, kena control makan, not fun.

Tapi, i am not at my best feeling right now. Ada jugak something bothering. About that, tak perlu tahu, sebab membosankan. hua2. Tapi do pray for the best for me.:)

What else what else???

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okay taktau dah nak cakap apa.

take care,

cuna

tagged : re-edited

2010-12-21T18:29:00.008+08:00

Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup anda?

family.

Benda terakhir yang korang beli pakai duit sendiri?

perfume

Di mana tempat korang nak melangsungkan perkahwinan & apa tema perkahwinan korang?

rumah. theme would be everlasting love. hahah aku bedal je the first thing yg came up in my mind.

Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

yes.:P

Berapa lama lagi korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

entah. semua di tangan Allah

Novel/buku/majalah yang terakhir korang beli?

Cleo

Antara mak ayah korang, mana korang lebih mesra?

ibu.

Namakan orang yang betul2 korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang.

urgh. serious tak tahu. but for now the person would be Tyler Ward. dia je dalam kepala right now.

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

the machine does it all.

Di manakah tempat yang korang btol2 nak pergi?

USA. ingat. all the answers are those that come up in my mind, immediately.

Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?

peluk.

Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang tag anda.

ni both for Po Span Kempis and Ayai.

Po: nocturnal, suka jalan2, and comel.:)

Ayai: gila, bising and gedik tapi baik.:)

Benda yang paling korang sayang dalam hidup korang?

benda? aduhh apa ehh?? purse. HAHA

5 lagu yang korang suka & selalu dengar.

1.use somebody- Kings of Leon

2.Hail the sunny days - Mando Diao

3.Random awesome - Yuna

4.Firework cover - Tyler Ward & Alex Goot

5.Grenade cover - Alex Goot ( this shows that i love their versions more than the original.:D)

5 blogger yang dipertanggungjawabkan untuk jawab tag ini.

hahah kesian pulak korang, sorry terpaksa:

1.Ji Kechil

2.Po, hahah dah jawab. senang kerja.

3.Ayai pun sama. :P

4.Eryna Siti Farah

5.Nany Cousin

ke dua orang yang dah jawab tu kira x aci?? fine Cuna tambah lagi 2 orang.

awatif pretty

inkmott

sila jawab.

love,

::cuna::

ya!

2010-12-17T18:57:00.003+08:00

im brave enough to say this;

i WILL marry a guy who can sing, play the guitar, drums, piano. better, more!

ada tak?? tu pun kalau dia nak kahwin ngn Cuna

pick of the day

2010-12-12T22:26:00.010+08:00

this is Kate.

her voice is f*cking awesome.

she gave me goosebumps listening to her thescientist-coldplay cover

::cuna::

definition of boredom

2010-12-12T11:54:00.006+08:00

Define boredom: dictionary saya kata, boredom is the feeling of being bored by something tedious.

Bored pulak means tired of the world.

bored enough?

Maknanya, it doesn't mean that when you don't do anything at all is boring, because anything can be boring, it depends.

For instance, i can have so much fun staying at home and relax. some people don't really get it.

And for me as well, going out and hanging out and do stuff can be f***ing boring too!! And vice versa for both statements pun true jugak.

AND, doing the same and almost the same things repeatedly with the same people pun boring even tho how fun it should actually be. Even the most boring thing to do if it is done with the person we favour and is fun can make the activity fun.

The point is actually right now i am bored. dengan orang yang bosan dan activity yang boring. malas pun ada. bukan malas buat kerja okay. Ni kejap lagi kena pergi tolong masak ni. So bukan malas tu. Malas lain. An example of malas im feeling right now "eeeih, malas la cakap ngan kau." "malasla nak keluar, duduk rumah lagi best." Ha macam tu. annoyed pun ada jugak sebenarnya. dengan siapa? Dengan orang yang boring juga. Aku dah melalut.

Ok truthfully yg sebenarbenarnya, i am missing some people right now. Tu yg annoyed ngan segala benda dan orang kat sini ni.

Mula2, saya rindu my girl soulmate; Wawa who is now in UK. Yg tu memang tak dapat dibendung. Shes too far.

2nd, my guy soulmate; Zarif. Pergi Korea, tapi nak balik dah. Tapi i only can meet him buka sem nanti.rindu? Ya. Memang, as much as the stars in the night sky.

3rd; Farah Najihan. Oh my dear, rindu gila kat u.

Then there's eryna siti farah; tak sabar nak jumpa kat kl nanti. and Don juga.

My little girl, Ji juga. Whoah rindu nak gossip.

Another person, payan. Indescribable.

Ada lagi, tapi malas dah nak type. See, kan dah kata, tengah malas ni.

Bila dah annoyed dengan sini, rasa nak balik kl. Tapi bila kat kl, annoyed ngan shah alam, sibuk nak getaway. Apalah manusia ni. Macam2.

Itu saja dari saya yang malas dan bosan. Jaga diri.

::cuna::

p/s: Happy Birthday to my sweet friend, Sue. enjoy your day.:))

sorry i couldn't join the celebration.:(

ampun maaf jika ada yang terasa. let me remind. this is my effing blog. kalau korang tak paham apa aku tulis, jangan risau, fahaman anda tidak begitu penting pun.:)

tapi!

2010-12-10T07:09:00.004+08:00

tahniah to all for your awesome pointers!

Cuna macam biasa, tak dapat DL.

TAPI!!!!!!!!

with the results i got, i thank Allah.

saya redha. bersyukur. Alhamdulillah.

padanlah dengan usaha.:)

tu maknanya kena usaha lebih lagi, Cuna:))

*jangan pikirkan pasal orang lain punya results*firetruck them.

now u guys dah baca ini post, takdelah nak tanya lagi kan?heheh

thankyouAllah,

::cuna::

senonoh

2010-11-30T20:31:00.003+08:00

hui cuti best. Duit tak mengalir macam air macam kat shah alam. Tapi keluar lepak, selalu! seronokseronokseronok. Aktiviti keluar ni akan diteruskan tak kira samaada dirancang awal atau pun last minute. takbleh tak buat, nanti bosan.

lepas tu.

duduk rumah cuticuti ni, cubacuba la perangai senonoh sikit. :DD

boleh tahan lagi muka.

boleh tahan lagi.......

nilah jadi bila takde kerja!astagha

geletek

2010-11-24T15:07:00.003+08:00

I'm so fragile at the moment.

Tickle me so I could laugh, not cry! and make jokes!

superduper cute! haha, im in the mood of searching for cute animal photos.:D

beneath

2010-11-24T14:44:00.003+08:00

memang happy,sangatsangat. tapi mesti ada jugak benda yang menyedihkan.kan?

hot kan picture ni:)

oh you, hear me out

2010-11-15T12:52:00.005+08:00

In the midst of everything in my life that is joyful and full of love, something is missing.
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Oh you, stop doing this to me, without you realizing it.
Oh you, I know you will be mad at me. I mean, you are mad at me, and will continuously be.
Oh you, the three years had been nothing but the most wonderful.
Oh you, I care so much about you even though I don't even know whether you do or not.
Oh you, I am trying to be okay without you. I miss you.
Oh you, I don't know whether I can hold on anymore.
I am sorry. A thousand of apologies.. but here I am.. BREAKING APART.

maafkan I sebab I jadi macam ni. But I am trying so hard. This is part of my intervention. This is the only thing I can do. Even though this is idiotically STUPID. You shouldn't do anything but ignore, because we know, girls are complicated. You,as a guy, just chill. REMEMBER, this is just part of me, intervening myself.

F,
::cuna::

(aku sendiri pun rasa menyampah dgn post ni yang sangat emosi. tapi, nak buat macammana, this is my effing blog. I can write whatever I want.)

mari menjahit.

2010-11-10T17:08:00.002+08:00

ha. dah start rasa nak menjahit.tak taula sampai bila rasa ni akan ada.hopefully it stays long:)
activity menjahit akan dimulakan dengan meng-alter jeansjeans yang perlu di-alter.
seronok dapat repair outfits kita sendiri:)
give us a feeling of excitement to wear em even tho theyre old. brand new vibe gitew.gedik.
bajubaju lama diberi rupa baru, macam baju baru. yang tak cantik, kasi cantik. suka:D
jimat duit pun ya jugak.
kalau dapat jahit outfits sendiri, lagi fun. i love sewing actually. lepas ni nak jahit shawls sendiri lah:) best best best.
inshAllah:)

by the way, sekarang im in love with the Star World series, Parenthood. best.

moving on,
::cuna::

cuti baru start

2010-11-09T18:44:00.007+08:00

Woot2! Best gila duduk Terengganu.Peaceful y'all!
Masa cutilah nak chill with family and relatives yang the best:D
Bukan tu saja, lepak with girlfriends and boyfriends yang superb kat sini pun dah tak sabar ni!
Yang exam lagi tu, cepatcepatlah habis.
Ada cousin rapat sorang, Nani, tapi dia nak SPM. Tak boleh kacau. nanti Cuna dipersalah kalau results teruk.hua3.
Dan mulalah. Takde kerja. Tengok tv makan online tidur. Tv pulak cerita best2. Star World paling syok. Dahla Izyanhusna ni kaki tengok tv. Habisss
Ha,kata nak kerja masa cuti. Tak taulah jadi ke tak.
Hopefully datangla rasa nak sewing balik, sketching and jadi rajin memasak ke. Takde la useless sangat.
ell, Happy Holidays:)

tu saja.
::cuna::

sikitsikitsudah

2010-11-06T14:46:00.004+08:00

okay, exam dah habis, Alhamdulillah. harap2 results boleh buat saya melompat keseronokan.amin.
malas nak tulis panjang2.
lusa balik Terengganu. tak sabar. lamalama duduk Shah Alam ni boleh muntah.
kepada yang tak habis exam lagi. All the best saya ucapkan.
yang dah habis exam, macam saya, Selamat Bercuti, Selamat menggemukkan diri, Selamat membosankan diri. i know whats coming. sat gi kat status facebook mulalah cakap pasal diri bosan time cuti. haha.

esok, birthday party nephew saya, Zidane Sharif. he's turning two. aih, cake bola lagi lah. oh tak, cake jersey this time. kaki bola betul Zidane tu. theme party pun football frenzy.:DD hopefully it'll be fun:))

ok tu je. sikit sikit sudah. nanti update lagi.

take care, xoxo
::cuna::

November 2, 2010

2010-11-02T23:04:00.007+08:00

caution;caution;caution

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:::ini post yg agak lovey dovey:::

tretttttttttttt here it goes
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today, 2nd November 2010.
Alhamdulillah.
today's our second anniversary.like, officially lah:P
takde banyak nak write kat sini.
all i wanna say is that it has been the most wonderful, greatest, awesomest, loveliest, and macammacam-est lagi, TWO YEARS filled with ups and downs.
truthfully, the ups and downs that color the relationship.
with honesty, trust, affection, care, understanding, barulah relationship tu works:)
fights, quarrels, misunderstandings, tu normal. we even need them to remind ourselves that we are not perfect. we try to correct each other and guide each other.
we learn from mistakes. theyre experience.therefore we learn.
we make plans. but we only make them, Allah is the One who determines and decides.
Zarif, u have been nothing but the best!:)
tak pernah serik! i salute u lah! Happy 2nd Anniversary, dear!! lets pray for this to stay, and for good things to come.amin.
:)) XOXOXOXOXO

p/s: lepas exam kita celebrate:D

all the best in exams!

heartyou,

:cuna:

latestpictureofuslahni.kelmarin:) patut study, tapi bergambar.patut study, tapi tengok makanan sedap2 dalam buku tu.:P

hi

2010-10-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

hi:)
tadi, exam first paper dah habis.woot woot! seronok, tapi penat, semua orang tak cukup tidur. so, nak rest! esok baru nak baca edu psychology. hehe okla malam ni bolehla belek belek sikit buku tu :P
insyAllah.
ha, pasal first paper tadi. taknak cerita panjang, pendeknya, susah (for me la) dan tawakkal la nanti result nak dapat apa. i hope i'll get what i deserve. amin.

Alhamdulillah, now im fine, in the pink of health giteww. gedik.

tapi right now ada one thing im wondering about myself; am i boring, i mean not fun? orang terengganu kata juruh.juruh ni baik perangainya dan boleh nampak in personality.*thinking**** ehhh takla, mana ada cuna juruh, takde la tak juruh langsung, juruh la jugak, tapi takla bosan or tak fun. cuna chill. yeah, thats the word; CHILL. okay ni just a random thing i was thinking.
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p/s: jaga kesihatan semuanya, tengah musim exam ni.

-cuna-

ceritasemalam

2010-10-29T13:54:00.003+08:00

oh semalam i fell sick.
pegi toilet tak terkira banyak kalinya. add-on: vomits.urgh, eww.
it started dengan sakit perut yg amat masa tengah tidur the night before.
i was super weak yesterday. sempat keluar pukul 3, balik pukul 5 tu terus pengsan, energy habis.
i think i experienced dehydration. tu lah, air masak taknak minum.padan..
nasib baik first paper on the 31st. if it was sooner, lingkup jawabnya.
tu lah, dugaan Tuhan bagi. macam2 cerita, sakitlah, my friend's mom kena samun kereta lah(kesian sangat), tu semua nak suruh kita jadi stronger. Tuhan tahu kita mampu go through it, thats why He gives us all the challenges.
Alhamdulillah, today my condition is better than yesterday, tapi still, makan tak banyak, sebab makanan takbleh masuk banyak,rasa nak barf. urk. and i still need to rest. nak fully recover kan.
semalam, sempat study masa yang keluar tu je. balik memang tak study langsung.rehat dan tidur.masa ni, siapa2 ajak nak pegi manamana yang paling seronok dalam dunia pun mesti Cuna taknak.hehe.
tapi hari ni dah bleh study la.terpaksa study, kalau tak nanti nak jawab apa?
oh by the way, thanks a lot pada yang concern, yang call, yg bagi get well wishes tu, and Zarif who is never tired of taking care of me yang banyak songeh ni. thanks dear.

thankyou,
::cuna::

okay,

2010-10-27T17:11:00.004+08:00

kad matrik hilang dah diganti. melayang 30 ringgit aku.uitm ni pun sengal.mencekik duit jugak rupanya.
exam slip pun dah print. okay bagus.
stationary pun dah beli. harap jangan hilang lagi please.
hmm, nampaknya semua dah prepare.
tapiii..
belajar je tak abis lagi! for now, buku phonetics menjadi mangsa kutukan.shitty betul la buku Roach ni.
i curse you for ~~being around the bush~~ membebel too much. tak bleh ke cakap straight to the point? kenapa satu sentence mesti sampai 4 5 baris?kenapa roach? kenapa?
setahu aku Americans ni straight to the point. owh, kau ni anak beranak lipas(roach), lupa.
tapi, akan ku cuba sedaya upaya untuk study. bagi support ye?thanks.
nasib baik dua paper je final exam sem ni.

okay, tu je.

p/s:tadi keluar,settle hal matric card dan lain2 lagi.semua okay.
tapi kenapa bila balik rumah je saya jadi blur dan mood hilang macam terlupa nak bawak balik, tercicir tengah jalan ke?

nasib baik ada mereka.

kepada

2010-10-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

kepada anda, anda, anda, dan anda serta anda-anda yang lain,
All The Best for the Final Exams.
Study Smart,jangan lupa Prayers to Allah.
Jawab elok elok, okay semua?
jangan seteres seteres. chill.
i Love You All.
<333
here's a hug for everyone:)

-cuna-

hail the sunny days

2010-10-23T18:31:00.002+08:00

GUSTAF NOREN.
boleh tak nak perasan dia ni my boyfriend?
boleh kannn :P

-cuna-

confession

2010-10-21T22:41:00.003+08:00

saya akui. SAYA CINTAKAN RAMAI LELAKI. ayat nak mintak kena bunuh ni.
peduli hape.ngehee

to be cont'd

bila ni

2010-10-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

bila ni nak dapat post FUN posts plak ni..
boring la.
::: kena getaway ni::::

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2010-10-20T00:55:00.004+08:00

facebook, blogger or whatever there is is just a small part of me.
jangan kata dah kenal cuna kalau setakat baca blog and facebook je. blog ni seciput je.i will never spit out, talk, type, express, excessively on the internet. my whole personal life is in the real world okay. :)
that is why sometimes i hate the internet.

i want to know real people.
REAL.
REAL. you have your own definition of it, kan.

real people sekarang yang ada; MY FAMILY.
senang cerita. nak balik rumah. where nothing there could ever annoy me more than everything here. even the biggest annoyance there will never be able to annoy me as much as the smallest annoyance here does.
patutlah ada quote RUMAHKU SYURGAKU.

ps: boleh kan kalau nak rasa annoyed randomly, tibatiba, kan.

randompostbutstillhonest,
cuna

errrrTAKUT

2010-10-19T13:06:00.005+08:00

sekarang cuna tengah takut.
seriously, for realss.
i have been worse than before. pemalas tu memang tak tau la nak cakap macammana. ni first time tak hantar assignment on time. takut.
TESTS. semua tak prepare. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
memang drama took a lot of time sampai kerja duk penat je. nak belajar and buat assignments pun susah. tapi takleh nak blame drama je. it's me. im falling down. dahlah tak pernah dapat deanslist, pastu semester ni perangai ntah pape. habisla aku.
takut pointer jatuh merudummmmmm..
takut kena repeat paper...
takut...nanti ibu ayah kata apa..'cuna! belajar ke duk main je kerja!' err, main tu takdela sangat. tapi memang dari awal dah cakap, spirit belajar tu tak berapa nak ada this time.
seriously.TAKUT GILA.
problems lain memang takde la nak layan, buat penat lagi adala.
i am freaking worried about my results this semester.
OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME, GIVE ME GUIDANCE AND STRENGTH.
memang confirm balik rumah nanti nak bagitau ibu ngan ayah awal2 yang probability result this sem jatuh tu ada. baik cerita awal2 dari diorang tau last2 nanti. tapi kalau result okay, Alhamdulillah. i really hope so.
tapi, kalau ikutkan my favorite quote, GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT, NOT WHAT YOU DON'T; memang jangan fikir pasal yang negative2 ni.
TAPI STILL TAKUT.

so now, taknak peningkan kepala dengan issues yang tak penting. nak worry diri sendiri je. SIAPA rasa diri dia ada kena mengena denganku, cubalah bagi INSPIRATION AND SUPPORT dekat IZYANHUSNA ni.

terimakasihsayangss,
cuna.

penat, tau tak

2010-10-14T02:15:00.002+08:00

SUPER DUPER DUPER DUPER MUPER BUSY.
PENAT GILA BAB*.
TOTALLY EXHAUSTED PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
mujur ada friends and not forgetting zarif yang sangat understanding.THANK YOU SO MUCH.
TAK SABAR NAK HABIS SEMUA NI!!
memang betul kata salah seorang madam tu; part 3 paling busy and tiring.
youre damn right,madam.

-cunayangpenat-

farewell

2010-10-12T01:07:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU A LOT ALREADY, GIRLFRIEND!

be good, take care.

lovess, see you.:)

-cuna-

sekarangialahnow

2010-10-08T22:55:00.007+08:00

dulu every thursday or friday dia akan call or text. mulalah gosippan kami.

sembang panjang.pillow talk giteww.

SERONOK.SERONOK.SERONOK.

tapi sekarang, semalam takde call or even a text pn takde. hantar sms kat dia,tp macam useless.

apatah lagi call, its like waiting for the rain on a drought. impossible dia akan pick up.

tibatiba macam tersedar yang probably dia ni dah lupa kat aku kot. or if tak lupa pun, maybe TERlupa. lagi satu macam tersedar yang maybe i am not that important to him. banyak sangat benda more important than me, i guess. fine lah.

mula mula bengang dengan cara dia. but lamalama dah lali. tapi makin lama, jadi annoyed and upset. WHERE ARE YOU?? literally i know where you are, but i dont know where youve gone from me. macam farther and farther. sigh. busynya you. super busy. hm, betullah, you ni business man. sangat busy.

lagi satu, one of my bestfriends is leaving the country,furthering studies. in a few days. memang betulbetul. jadi jugak hajatnya. congratulations my dear. im so happy for you. BUT am i not your bestfriend because you didnt inform me that youre going like, next week. i knew it from someone else.or is it because i am your bestfriend then you dont wanna tell me so that i wont be sad, and you just want me to be like freakin shocked and sad? or is it youre tooooo busy preparing.because it is kinda quick. very quick, actually. so, untuk the best answer, i'll take the third option; youre too busy. i understand,babe.

i really hope i could see you before you leave. i am sureeeeeelyy going to reallyyyyy miss you. ergh. at first knowing that you'll be going, berkaca jugak mata i babe. rasa sedih you nak pergi. nanti nak borakborak secrets dengan siapa..:(

i hope we could skype or chat when youre not busy. i heart you. youre my GIRLFRIEND.i could be like a lesbo when im with you.hahaha:) best of luck. jangan nakal sangat. kalau tanya cuna, nak nakal boleh, tapi jangan nakal sangat.

inilah sedikit kisah sekarang pasal antara dua orang yang terpenting dalam hidup cuna.

tapi, for a balanced life,God is fair. sememangnya i am currently in a very GOOD mood and HAPPY state. badan pun sihat. alhamdulillah. hari ni gelak banyak sangat. sampai keluar air mata. and as a student right now, i am relaxed, chilled. relationship pun okay, COOL.giteww...

tapi esok lusa tak tau la kan. pray for the good things lah.

ok u ols. later..:))

be good everyone.

CUNA

korang ni

2010-10-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

korang ni, ntah papela. chill sikit bleh tak? reti nak buat marah je.marah saya plak camne? tak takut? hare.

tak kisah macam mana saya express anger or dissatisfaction tak kisah la kat sape2 pun, pasal apa2 pun, generally. and memang currently ada rasa2 itu. tapi chill sudah.:)))

the point is,

SAYA ADA LIFE SAYA YANG PERLU DIBALANCEKAN.WAJIB. that's broad, kan? kamu2 pun sama. mesti anda paham.

memang lately kusut sikit la hidup.kalut pun ada. sserabut apatah lagi. tapi honestly, saya sihat, cukup makan,even orang tegur saya kurus as if tak puas hati saya kurus. pa hal? both skinny and fat people are sensitive okay. jaga sikit. nak kaki? woops terlari topik. back to the topic.and saya happy.dan BERSYUKUR, tak lupa juga. BM bersepah.

takde kerja sebenarnya.(assignments banyak, tapi tu bukan kerja, tu beban)

sekadar updating :D

saya,

cuna

tho

2010-09-26T22:24:00.003+08:00

i still have zarif whos always there for me.

even tho lately kami byk buat perangai. but hes always there for me.

buat2 perangai pun then okay balik. biasalah tu, nama pun in a relationship.

although still sedih about F, Zarif tetap ada.

thank you for being there all the time.

:)))

not too much to say,

iheartyouZarif,

cuna.

taken

2010-09-26T00:34:00.006+08:00

taken.

this is what ive been afraid of. being taken away from me, by the other.

and now, it is happening.

a little step at a time, away from me.

firetruck.

now, nak gossip ngan siapa?

nak mengeluh kat siapa?

nak gelak ngan siapa?

nangis ngan siapa???

siapa nak bwk round2 kl?

if you hilang, i takde memories of you yg tangible.:(

takutt

but, the world does not revolve around you only, cuna. for his own good, let him be happy. takkan nak jadi selfish, cuna.

well, go on. i hope you'll be a lot happier sekarang since you dah dapat apa you nak. im happy for you.

but please. jangan lupa i.i sayang you.sangat.

you cakap,"dont worry cuna. i still syg u.", "i still contact you"

i hold on to those words.

cuna

dua dalam satu

2010-09-24T23:51:00.011+08:00

good and bad.

sebelum cakap pasal perkara2 menyerabutkan tu, kita cakap happyhappy dulu.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone. ada salah silap terkasar terngada ngada tergedik tu mintak ampun.see, happy sangat masa raya.:DDD

thats 2 weeks ago..

AND NOW...

oh tidak tidak tidak. perkara tak best.

sekarang hidup mcm %^&*(.

pointless. segala yang -less la. masalah tu tak pernah nak takde. kalau takde masalah yang ni, datang masalah lain plak, just different types n stories, theyre still problems. kusut yang teramat sgt.

patut tengah happy raya lagi right now, bukan mcm ni.

life currently sucks at the moment. mmg sakit la. though i know that kesusahan yg melanda ni is actually a great thing, in disguise, which brings hope. tapi takde la sampai nak bunuh diri. rasa nk pegi karok 5 jam ade la. n nak pegi somewhere i can scream my heart out.

rasa nak give up, in everything. besides, some of the people i love a lot are going further away from me,one inch at a time. it sucks. i dont want it to happen. I LOVE YOU. I NEED YOU.

plus, aku tgh confused. serabut. nak belajar pun takde semangat. like seriously, takde semangat.firetruck.

lagi satu, now aku sedar yg aku ni ada banyak yg aku kena repair kat diri ni. then barulah aku deserve all the love i have owned all this while.

gambar serabut; mana ada.pe hal nk letak plak. yg happy sudah.

ok,just updating.

i need catalyst,

cuna.

2hariFUN

2010-08-27T20:48:00.004+08:00

pegi uia, ingat nak tido sana, tapi tak jadi,

wawa ajak tido rumah dia. so sia2 je bawak bantal cik fara tu suruh bawak..

nak jumpa JieKechil pun tak sempat. sorry babe, really2 sorry, everything became not according to plan..

dahla nak dinner kat KunangKunang la katakan, tapi tengok2 dia buat buffet rm51 seorang.!@#$%^&* memang x pegila. so semua pegi makan kt Planet Tom Yam jadinya. biasa je. nasib baik petang tu me Fara n Mah pegi bazar uia beli makanan untuk berbuka dulu b4 dinner. so dinner kt tom yam tu x makan sgt cz dah kenyang. so ni satu hal x ikut plan.

2nd, nak tido bilik Fara,tapi jadi tido rumah Wawa lagi satu hal x ikut plan..

malam tu pukul 2pagi lapar. tapi ngantuk.mcmmana?? me Wawa Mah n Fara tahan la mata, then pukul 3pagi pegi Kayu Nasi Kandar Damansara tu.makan punya makan, balik pukul 4am tidorrr...

11.30 am baru semua bangun! hmm..siap2 nak pegi one utama. asalnya plann nak pegi BB, nak pegi satu kedai i call kedai invisible, cz situ bags serious murah. tapi lastly pegi ou. pegi ou pulak semua puas hati sbb dapat shopping banyak! wow! but then kena rush balik since Wawa kena kluar ngn kawannya, n i have to go back to s.a.

patutnya balik naik ktm, tapi not as according to plan, again, mah plak anta balik s.alam cz dia nak amik abang dia. sampai2 mah anta pegi mcD sec 3. berbuka with My Deary. kesian, hes sick. dont worry dear, have lotsa rest, then u;ll be fine soon.

so basically, 2 hari ni sangat fun coz i finally dapat get out of s.alam yg sangat annoying bila lama2 duduk. taking a little time out memang sangat2 releasing. so, i really had fun.

next time Jie, i promise i pegi uia kita jumpa k..i suka pegi uia, best!

its good to be back to see my hunny, rindu 2 hari xjumpa.hehe

selalu rasa macam xnak balik s.alam bila kluar dari s.alam.uwuwuw

satu je x best, xsempat snap pictures. so x boleh upload.

ok lah, im just updating.

cuna.

lessons

2010-08-22T23:55:00.004+08:00

ive made SO many mistakes in my life,
ive disappointed SO many people in my life..
how i WISH that i could turn back time and never had done the mistakes that i did in the past.
how i wish i could just FORGET every single mistake that ive done and move on happily without having to reminisce or not even just have a glimpse of memory about em mistakes.

coz mistakes will never fade, right? they stay in our mind. they do haunt, but they are REMINDERS.

how i WISH ALL MY MISTAKES WOULD JUST VANISH EASILY,

but,

THINK BACK,

without mistakes, how am i going to learn, especially about life?
hmm, i realized that mistakes are necessary, cz without em, i would not ever regret and learn the LESSONS.

and now i want to remember all my mistakes, so that none of them would be repeated.haha

i love my FAMILY, FRIENDS, n SOULMATE.

but most importantly, THANK YOU ALLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH FOR YOUR GUIDANCE AND LOVE TO ME.

lotsa love,

Cuna.

separuh 18/08/10 punya cerita

2010-08-18T15:09:00.007+08:00

Cett! Semangat bangun pagi sahur.

Pukul 10 dah pegi class psychology, pakai baju kurung siap nak present case study..

datang2 tgk2 budak2 ni cakap class cancel, rasa lega dan bengang, coz lecturer tak bleh ke cakap awal2..

tapi yg paling bengang tgk2 dia tak jadi cancel class, dan dan la ada class pukul 11..

pa$%t betol..nasib baik aku tak balik lagi, kalau tak, dapat warning letter la aku..

Then,huish, kena present ni, dah la semua cam x prepared, abis la kena nanti..

semua duk main printout report last minute, yang x printout pun ada, hai, makin bengang puan tu..

aku ni pun tgk la member2 present dulu sambil be prepared sket ngan menda nak cakap kejap lagi..

dah abis group kye, po, ira n yg lain2 tu, sampai la my group's turn to present,

mula2 dah rasa dah tak selesa, bangun2 dari kerusi tanya po ada pape tak kat kain, Po tekejut! "Cuna! Banyakkkkkkk...:S"

OMG!! tak puasa aku...

KALUT! KALUT!

EMERGENCY! dahla aku ni present first2, adoi cmne ni??

kalut punya kalut, madam suruh pegi toilet, 'barang penyelamat' pulak tak bawak, nasib Madam kasi dia punya..Thank You Madam!

tapi serious banyak,. Yang si Kei tu pulak duduk sebelah aku, bleh plak dia duk eeewww eeewww disgusting! aku bagi setempek kat muka baru tau..hahaha..

after that masuk2 terus present.i don't know how was my presentation, i think it was terrible,

n Madam bengang ngn kami semua sebab tak prepared except for group Marhanis. serious diorang bagus..

n the rest?? hmm, kena la, disuruh improve la, dia bleh nampak whether prepare ke tak, n ada yang dapat 1.5 out of 5 marks. hmm, takut la if i might be the person yg dapat lowest.:SS

dengan itu, berakhirlah class psycho yg sgt PSYCHOTIC untuk hari ni..

what a day..

cuna.

2010-08-11T13:47:00.003+08:00

sincerely from Cuna to everyone,

HAPPY FASTING!
SALAM RAMADHAN!
May this Ramadhan bring more happiness and more meaning to us all.
be good!

RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK,
.cuna.

so far, its been the best

2010-08-07T23:59:00.003+08:00

2nd of August 2010.
Our 21st monthly anniversary!
Dinner at Chili's. Wonderful.
honey, youre the best.<3
i heart you.

sumayyah

2010-07-14T23:27:00.003+08:00

this is my newborn niece at the age of 3 days.
birthday 8th July 2010, sama dengan encik zarip ismail! wooot wooot!!
welcome to the world Zoe Sumayyah <3 <3 <3
isnt she a cutie..

lovelovelove,
cuna

spain menang, saya sangat happy

2010-07-14T18:27:00.006+08:00

hi,
sudah lama tak update blog.
laptop pn takde, rusak..
meminjam je la jawabnya.

sesungguhnya Spain menang World Cup 2010, i am one of the happiest supporters..
i have been a Spain supporter sudah lama, since kecik2 lagi, biarla org nak kata apa, i dont really care. theyve won! congrats:D really worth the stayups at nights..

classes dah start, everything's fine, nothing great..completely takde perasaan.in fact, awal2 dah ade monteng. awal2 la kena ponteng dol..
mmg takde ape nk ckp pn pasal new semester ni..
but this time, i'll try to control my spending, save up some money, not leaving 0.00 in my accounts.

ouh ya, finally, now i have driving licence(takpayah tngok muka instructor bengong tu lagi), but i dont have a car here in shah alam, so public transport la..but i could drive, meaning if sewa kereta, i can totally drive.:)))

this semester, im hoping to have fun with everyone,this weekend with this person, next with these people, next with those people, baru la rasa my social life is really functioning. kenala make myself free.and same goes to them as well. kalau saya mengajak tu, biar jadi la ye plan nya.kalau saya busy, maaf sangat..i'll try some other time.

but SERIOUSLY, i really want to start taking control of my financing. i couldnt stand realizing that my money is flowing like water. DAMN.
but still, have tu mesti la kena..:D

oh and lagi satu, i am now an auntie to a new born baby girl of my sister, her name is Zoe Sumayyah Bt. Zulkifli. shes such a cutie.GERAM:D
nanti saya upload picture nya.

tu je lah.
be good u ols:D
cuna.

saya kena..

2010-06-19T23:09:00.003+08:00

saya kena kumpul duit.
macam2 benda yang di plan ni..
KENA beli watch, perfume, new round of outfits,
birthday ENCIK AFRO lagi,
birthday presents kawan2 saya yang TERSAYANG yang saya berhajat nak bagi,
hutang piutang lagi..
hai, macam mana ni?
bleh survive ke x nanti ni?
macam kena CUT DOWN some things je,
maybe new round of outfits kena cut down kot?ala Cuna, u can always pull any outfit off..hahaha..nak sedapkan hati.
jadi student macam ni la, tak payah nak lawa2, keep everything simple, moderate but NICEEE! GOOD THINKING, CUNA.

therefore, enjoy lah World Cup, team saya, Spain dah kasi BIG SHOCK sama kita.
tapi takpe, Ronaldo sangat HOT AND SEXY.haha, what does that have to do with the Spanish team? takdaa..

saya sekadar merepek dalam blog saya, maafla kepada sesiapa yang mengharapkan sesuatu yang serious. its my damn blog.
i say whatever i want to.
ngahahaha..

tiba2 rasa macam nak kahwin.hah! Cuna! enough of ur nonsense!

haha, ok la, see ya:))
lotsoflove, i miss everyone lots esp besties, kye n po, en.afro, and other fellas,
cuna.

bolehla tu

2010-05-21T19:58:00.005+08:00

today, i made a dress/top/shirt. terima kasih kepada cousinku nany for giving me the urge to sew outfits.and not forgetting en zarif(nak jugak dia tu)
this one,made it out of old tshirts..
mula2 nampak senang,
but then tgh2 buat hoi pening kepala.
lama2 bantai sana sini.
jadi lah jugak.wakaka..
rasa happyla jugak cz it clearly lessened my DESIRE to shop!

tapi alamak, today tak sketch lagi.
kalau ada pihak yang tahu cuna tak sketch lagi today, wargh mati.haha
SKETCH SANGAT PENTING.

btw, mr z, better make up, quickly.

and this is the outcome of my pening2 today;

oh lupa :)

2010-05-20T19:28:00.004+08:00

saya terlupa,
saya perlu sketch..:))

now ive remembered a good thing that i really2 have to do; SKETCHING!
plus, dah dpt join style 2 burn (the most fun part)
thank u 2x.
seronok2.
sangat2 excited.

sketch jgn x sketch,
cuna

di rumah

2010-05-19T16:42:00.003+08:00

cuna kat rumah buat apa?
err..makan, tgk tv, tido.

xkluar ke?
err,,belum..(ada masalah)lol.

cuna sekarang tgh rasa apa?
rasa bosan,rasa takde purpose la plak kat umah ni.

xnak kerja?
nak kerja kat mana?lesen pon xdapat lagi..

xnak buat smarties?
err, malasla, takde org nak kasi modal.haha lol lagi.

abis tu?
abis tu apa? macam ni la, sangat2 pemalas.
post ni pon cm hare takde makna..

dahla cuna, duk umah, makan, its time to be healthy, kt s.alam bukan sihat sgt, makan pon ntah pape.
eh, ada la purpose duk umah, be HEALTHY! har3..

dahla..pfft..ni post yang ntah apa2.

encik zarif@hemo, selamat berkebun.haha

tu saja,
cuna@hemi.

wohoo!

2010-05-09T20:45:00.005+08:00

yeehaaa! 2nd semester dah habis!
seronok! i wish i could celebrate it with zef-ketto!
tomorrow insyallah ade mission:D ngehehee.:D
pray for safety and joy.
Hemo@goliath, rindu u sokmo lahhh!

cuti nak buat ape?
yg paling penting, pegi test jpj tu cuna!sampai bile ko nak lekat ngn lesen L yg tak berguna tu! baik2!
and i'll try to make use of the holidays wisely.lookin forward for fun things during holidays:DDD. kalau dapat kompol doit pon best jugek!

and ofcourse,
today;s MOTHER'S DAY,
HAMIDAH MOHD, I LOVE U LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS infinity love,
thank u for EVERYTHING! since i was born, till forever!
everyday is always mother's day to me.URE THE BIESTTTT, IBU!

rinduketto,semdahhabis,SAYANG IBU,
CUNANANANA

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2010-05-05T22:06:00.006+08:00

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oh it is horrible

2010-05-04T13:48:00.005+08:00

how lost i am when ure not here with me.
it feels like something is missing though everything looks complete. well, someone;s missing; that's u.

everyday ada rase the emptiness. despite having tons of fun with friends, yet it is never the same. when it is with u, it is different, very different. how i wish u could come back here till my exam's over.

maaf sebab kena bertekak.that's the color and part of the beauty of a relationship.

i dont know whether i can hold on much longer to my longing to u.

please make our plan on 10th of may happen.

u're 20, u do have the right to decide besides others'.

please, please, please.

most of all, I MISS U SO MUCH!

zarif, imy,
cuna@hemi

buku sociology sangat kejam, hare@#$%^&*

2010-04-29T03:12:00.007+08:00

hoi nak baca kau macam nak bercinta ngn jude law die punya impossible.
dah baca nak kasi masuk dlm kepala lagi satu hal..
dah makan dinner sedap2 kan dah muntah mewah sbb kau.,
abis kluar nasi arab aku makan, cheesy wedges, air soursop ngn donut aku.[exaggerate lebih, pdhal xmuntah pon=b]
baik aku update blog,haha

jeanne h. ballantine(author buku tu), aku xnak tengok dah buku kau lepas ni.
kesian kat aku ngn kawan2 aku.kau aniaya kami.=s

adoi sociology, kau cari pasal ngn aku,
aku xtau kat mane la senangnye subjek ni.

esok aku bantai kau habis-habisan!
bleh jawab ke xleh jawab ke, aku try sedaya aku,
klo kena jawab tulis harry potter macam kakak kye cakap pon bedal la..haha
aku nak jawab clash of the titans.

yg penting, skrg nak tido, esok nk bgn awal, nk bertarung ngn socio paper.
cukupla setakat aku dah baca,xleh masuk dalam kepala dah kalo aku baca lg.

cuna and kawan2, i pray that we could do our best tomorrow.=)

goodnight2, ksian bantal ngn katil aku rindu..

lots of love,
cuna.=DDDDD

baru je nak update blog

2010-04-26T11:46:00.004+08:00

tibe2 ade mnde yg xbest.
biarla, xkisah pon.
terus hilang mood nak update.:|
next time la.
baik tido.=)))

anyways, good luck for finals to us, who sit for em.
study smart, not hard,
eve tho its finals, never be too self-centred,
remember those around u.

lots of love,
cuna.

HOMESICK!

2010-04-07T18:45:00.003+08:00

currrently i am homesick, extremely homesick! nak balik rumah! sangat under pressure from all the assignments and the feverish life here, very very constrasting from being home. damn, nak balik. i realized that no matter how happy,peaceful u are at a certain place, when it comes to being the best place on earth, it'll be HOME. xbleh balik this week pon xpela, kerna assignments yang berlambak, xpe, nex week BALIK JUGAK!!

ibu n ayah, thanks for ur never ending advice and support. imy lots.
zarif, thanks fr being there for me all the time, by my side no matter what.ilysm.
chums, thanks fr making me smile even during these miserable days.
friends, u guys are the complements of my life
all in all, i love everyone.=)